Waiting...

So its been three days since I stopped taking my meds and my body won't work with me. Haven't I been through enough body? I gotta have it easy somewhere right? Obviously no. I still "feel" KU and I hate the fact I won't feel like this in a couple days. Its sad actually. I just have that ugly brownish spotting. I never thought I would be saying this but Im ready, Im ready for the end and now its not happening fast enough for me. Ugh, well cant make it go any faster, I hate when things are out of my control (somewhat of a control freak). Well maybe if I do some vigorous cleaning and some exercise it will get things running. One of the things I worry about is my job and the unavailability of a bathroom when needed. I would much rather end this thing while I'm here in the comfort of my own home. Doesn't look like thats going to happen for me this time. Until tomorrow.