My Intro...

Yay! My first Blog post! So allow me to introduce myself, I am Andrea and I am married to the most wonderful man in the world, Wes. Our journey began in Aug 2006 when we got our first BFP. We were so excited, I still remember both our reactions as I walked out of the bathroom eyes wide and a huge grin on my face. We laughed and cried at the same time. It was beautiful. Shortly after (about two weeks later) we sadly lost our LO naturally. Determined we tried again two months later, and whatdaya know, BFP. A week later, natural M/C. Thinking third time is a charm, tried again two months after that, BFP, that same day M/C'd with a chemical pregnancy. Feeling defeated, we gave it a rest for a while, a long while. It wasn't until Aug 2008 (about a year later) I felt ready to throw out the BCP. So we thought it would happen right away, then nothing. My OB suggested we go to a RE for infertility back in Jan 2009. So off we went and he did tons of B/W and testing on my tissues.

So far all was well until he wanted to do a biopsy of my cervix (aka cervical SCRAPING, yes scraping). Ok first of all OUCH! Most pain I have ever experienced! I sat up after the procedure and almost passed out. I went home and the bleeding stopped almost immediately after the procedure. Well then two days later I start heavy flowing again. Feeling this isn't right I call RE office and they say oh thats normal, call us if you have a fever. Two days later call again with no call back. Heavy bleeding continues for five days and looks and feels like a M/C, which is sadly all to familiar to me. On the fifth day of tissuey blood flow I take an old HPT and low and behold a BFP. I scream at everyone in RE office for not calling me back and they felt completely stupid. I get rushed in, have betas drawn and confirm I WAS PG. Of course all of us knew it was too late for this one, I just wish the "expert" that I'm trusting should have caught that my cervix was tightly closed before all the scraping was done. He says that the biopsy was not the cause of the M/C, but for some reason I do.

After that mess, I recovered (somewhat mentally, more physically) and then we started TTC again full force in June. Started on Clomid and cycle 1 with no IUI, BFN. Cycle 2 Clomid + IUI, BFN. Cycle 3 Clomid 100mg + IUI, BFN???? Ok so here is the latest tragedy. Cycle 3 looked promising IUI went well, DH sperm count and motility EXCELLENT, and things just felt good, we knew this was our month. 11dpiui I get betas done, BFN. So I stop taking my meds (Heparin, baby aspirin, metformin and progesterone) and enjoy a couple glassed of wine with a friend. Four days later AF is two days late, Oh. Shit. Take a HPT and very faint pink line says BFP. Immediately go back on meds and call RE. Get betas done that day and they come back @ 23 16dpiui. To me, that just seemed low. 48 hrs later they doubled to 56, yay! 48 hrs after that they didn't double and were @ 89. To make a very long story short I had very slow rising betas and Sept 16 stopped taking my medications and am currently waiting for the end to come. I have never felt so beaten in my entire life.

Surprisingly, I still feel like we will someday have the baby we long for. The baby we always dream about taking care of and watching grow into a wonderful adult. Of course as of right now we are forced to take a break for a few months, but in this time I will have a surgery done called a laparoscopy to rule out endometriosis. I am going to suggest that me RE also take a look inside my ute and do a hysteroscopy while Im knocked out. Can't hurt. Next year is a new year, hopefully with a beautiful baby to come. Here's to you, 2010...